A Precious Gem of Mine

 

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TODAY I AM OFFICIALLY A LIFE MEMBER OF BPPV. (BENIGN PAROXYSMAL POSITIONAL VERTIGO).

I NEED TO COMPLETE THE EXERCISE ABOVE FOR 20 DAYS TO SEE RESULT.

EACH TIME I FAIL TO COMPLETE THE SETS REQUIRE BEFORE I START VOMITTING.  THE FEELING IS TERRIBLE AND I AM SCARE.

SUCH TIME, I AM REMINDED BY GOD THAT I WAS GIFTED A SON WHO NOT ONLY SACRIFICES HIS LIFE BUT WHO NEVER LET ME DOWN IN TIME OF NEEDS. NOT ONCE.

EVEN THOUGH I HAVE GIVEN BIRTH TO 5 CHILDREN, 3 HAVE TURNED INTO UNGRATEFUL AND MEAN PARIAH.  I HAVE ONE FAITHFUL AND LOYAL CHILD.

I FEEL SORRY FOR MY SON KHAIRUL KNOWING THAT IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO ME, HE IS ALL ALONE.  HIS SIBLINGS DO NOT CARE NOR BOTHER ABOUT HIM.  HE IS AN OUTCAST IN THEIR LIFE.

NOT ONCE HAVE THEY TREATED HIM LIKE A REAL BROTHER.  TO THEM HE IS JUST A BEGGAR AND USELESS AS A HUMAN BEING.

THIS IS THE KARMA I GET FROM THE ONES I GAVE BIRTH TO.

THEY ARE NOT GRATEFUL TO ANYONE EXCEPT TO THE ONES WHO THEY CAN HAVE SEX WITH.  TO THEM MONEY CAN BUY ANYTHING.  THEIR SPOUSE FAMILY IS MORE IMPORTANT, OTHERS ARE MORE IMPORTANT.

THEY DO NOT UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF FAMILY OR HAVING A MOTHER.  TO THEM A MOTHER MUST NOT HAVE AN OPINION.  A MOTHER CANNOT THINK.  A MOTHER MUST LISTEN AND DO WHAT THEY WANT.  TO THEM A MOTHER IS TO DO HOUSEWORK AND CANNOT GET SICK. THEIR MOTHER IS JUST A DIVORCEE WITH NO RIGHTS.

(I HAVE DONE A SEARCH AND READ THAT AS A DIVORCEE NOW YOU HAVE NO RIGHTS.  I HAVE THE RIGHT OVER THE GIRLS AND FAMILY)  THIS IS THE EXACT WORDS OF MY SO CALLED YOUNGEST SON AMSYAR BEFORE HE LEFT HOME.

AS A MOTHER HOW DO YOU FEEL?

DO I FORGIVE AND FORGET.  THE ANSWER IS NO.

ONE DAY HIS WIFE AND CHILDREN WILL SAY TO HIM THE EXACT WORDS WHAT HE SAYS TO ME.

TODAY I FEEL GRATEFUL THAT I AM STILL ALIVE TO CURSE AND SWEAR AT MY 3 CHILDREN.