A Mother's Heart

 

THIS IS MY LAST PIECE TO THE ONES WHO WENT ASTRAY.

MOTHER'S LOVE CAN BE EASILY MISUNDERSTOOD BECAUSE OF  MISCOMMUNICATIONS AND MISTRUST.

I HAVE ALWAYS LONGED FOR A CLOSE KNITTED FAMILY BECAUSE I WAS BROUGHT UP IN FOSTER HOME.  BUT OVER THE YEARS SOCIETY AND RELIGION HAVE TAKEN OVER WHAT I CHERISHED AND BUILT AS A FAMILY.  I TRUSTED THE CHILDREN I BORE AND TO THIS DAY I THOUGHT MY LOVE MY STRONG ENOUGH TO HOLD THEM TOGETHER.

AS A MOTHER I HAVE FAILED.  BUT THEN MOST FAMILY ARE LIKE THAT TODAY.

TODAY CHILDREN ARE VERY MATERIALISTIC. THEY THINK THE OTHER SIDE OF THE FENCE IS GREENER AND MORE BEAUTIFUL.

EVERY FAMILY HAS ITS UPS AND DOWNS BUT LACK OF UNDERSTANDING CAN DESTROY THE WHOLE HOUSEHOLD.

I NEVER ONCE OBJECTED TO THE MARRIAGE OF THE FIRST.  I ONLY WANTED WHAT WAS THE BEST BEFORE THE MARRIAGE.  THE BOY CONCERN WAS NEVER BROUGHT UP TO RESPECT OTHER PEOPLE'S CULTURE AND FAMILY VALUES.  AS A MOTHER THIS WAS A DANGEROUS SIGN THAT THE FIRST WILL BE CONTROL IN THE NAME OF ISLAM.  THE PEOPLE THEY MIX WITH ARE FROM RELIGIOUS GROUPS ESPECIALLY THOSE FROM ACEH.  BEARING IN MIND THERE IS NO RESPECT FOR WOMEN, I FEAR THE FUTURE.  TODAY TO CONSTRAINT HER, BOMOH ARE BROUGHT IN. SO WHY ACCUSED ME OF OBJECTING TO THE MARRIAGE WHEN I WAS NEVER ONCE CONSULTED OR WERE IN THE PLANNING.

THE YOUNGEST WAS GROOMED TO REPLACE ME AS A WIFE, WHICH NO ONE IN THE FAMILY BELIEVE.  AS A WOMAN I CAN SEE THE SIGNS AND MOHD JAMIL NEVER DENIED IT. AGAIN NO ONE WANTED TO BELIEVE THE TRUTH INSTEAD BLAME ME FOR THE FAILURE OF THE MARRIAGE AND FOR ASKING FOR A DIVORCE. WERE THEY EVEN AWARE THAT MOHD JAMIL SEEK BOMOH HELP AGAINST ME?  THE RELATIVES AND FRIENDS EVEN ENCOURAGED SUCH ACTION.

THE YOUNGEST SON HAS PRIDE AND EGO LIKE HIS PENIS.  HE THINKS ONLY HE IS CAPABLE OF BEING ON TOP WHILE EVERYONE IN THE FAMILY ARE BENEATH HIS FEET. FORGETTING MY STRUGGLE AND YEARS OF BRINGING HIM UP AND GIVING HIM WHAT I THOUGHT WAS THE BEST.

I GAVE MORE LOVE, CARE AND WHAT I THOUGHT WAS THE BEST FOR THE YOUNGEST TWO. BUT IN VAIN WHEN THEY ACCUSED ME OF BEING STERN IN DISCIPLING THEM. THEY CLAIMED I CALLED THEM A LIAR AND A THIEF WHEN THEY WERE 9 YEARS OLD.  TO THIS DAY I CANNOT FATHOM HOW IT CAN BE WHEN I SPOILT THEM. IN FACT MY ELDEST HAD THE BLUNT OF MY ANGER MOST TIMES WHEN ANYTHING GOES WRONG IN THE HOUSE.

MY YOUNGEST GIRL NEED COUNSELLING FOR HER HEART IS FULL OF HATRED TOWARDS ME NOT REALIZING I GAVE UP PART OF MY LIFE FOR HER.

THE TRUST OF MY FAMILY HAS BEEN BROKEN INTO PIECES WHICH WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN.

MY ADVICE TO ALL CHILDREN OUT THERE, TRY TO UNDERSTAND THE WOMAN WHO GAVE BIRTH TO YOU. WITHOUT HER THERE IS NO YOU.

TRUST THE ONE WHO BROUGHT YOU UP INTO THIS WORLD.  DO NOT CUT THE HEART WITH YOUR  RELIGION, PRIDE, EGO AND SELFISHNESS.

YOUR KARMA WILL BE 10 FOLD BIGGER.

WITH THIS LET US PART AND NEVER CROSS PATH AGAIN.

THIS IS TO INFORM EVERYONE MOHD KHAIR AMSYAR WILL BE LEAVING BEFORE THE YEAR END.

2020 HAS ENDED MY FAMILY FOR GOOD AND I PRAY THAT 2021 I WILL BE ABLE TO FIND LOVE, CARE AND TRUST FROM OTHERS.

Art Harun Math Wizard of Malaysia

 

A Mission To Hurt Me

 

IN MY PAST LIFE, I MUST HAVE DONE HORRIBLE THINGS TO THIS BASTARD TO DESERVE THE KIND OF SHIT HE IS DOING TO ME.

THIS BASTARD IS MY YOUNGEST SON WHO HATES ME THE MOST.

TO HIM I AM NOT FIT TO BE HIS MOTHER.

HE NEVER ACKNOWLEDGES ME AS ONE EITHER.

ALL THE SACRIFICES AND HARD WORK BRINGING HIM UP WAS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH.

AFTER HE LEFT WORKING FOR HELP, HE CHANGED INTO A MONSTER WITHOUT A HEART AND SOUL.

HE NEVER LIKE TO SEE ME HAPPY.

HE WILL DO ANYTHING TO ENCOURAGE HIS BROTHERS AND SISTERS TO LEAVE ME.

CLAIMING THAT I SHOULD LIVE ALONE.

HE SHAMED ME IN PUBLIC.

HE REFUSED TO SEE HIS GRANDMOTHER WHEN SHE WAS SICK. WHEN SHE DIED THIS YEAR, HE PRETEND NOT TO KNOW AND TOLD HIS YOUNGER SISTER TO DO THE SAME.

NEVER ONCE HAD HE EVER SHOWN HIS LOVE FOR ME EXCEPT WHEN HE WAS STILL STUDYING.

THE FRIENDS HE MIXES ARE HIGH CLASS, HIGH NOSE PEOPLE WHO BELIEVE THAT PARENTS SHOULD BE ACKNOWLEDGE IF THEY HAVE MONEY, HOUSE, CAR AND ASSETS ONLY.  IF POOR THROW THEM AWAY.

TO AMSYAR, WORKING CHILDREN SHOULD NOT SUPPORT OR STAY WITH THEIR AGED PARENTS.

TO AMSYAR, PARENTS DO NOT NEED FOOD AND SHELTER.

TO AMSYAR, PARENTS DO NOT NEED LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING.

PARENTS ARE FOR SHOW ONLY.

PARENTS CANNOT DEMAND FOR THE CHILDREN'S ATTENTION AND CARE.

PARENTS HAVE NO RIGHT TO HAVE FEELINGS.

PARENTS ARE ALWAY WRONG AND SHOULD NOT HAVE AN OPINION.

PARENTS HAVE POOR JUDGEMENT.

PARENTS SHOULD MOVE ASIDE AND ONLY APPEAR WHEN THERE IS A NEED.

THIS IS THE ONLY SON WHO HAS NEVER EVER WISH ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

THIS IS THE ONLY SON WHO NEVER APPRECIATED MY HOME MADE BIRTHDAY CAKES.

THIS IS THE ONLY SON WHO HAS NEVER TAKEN ME ANYWAY FOR A HOLIDAY

THIS IS THE ONLY SON WHO THINKS PARENTS SHOULD NEVER BE APPRECIATED..

THIS IS THE ONLY SON WHO HAS NEVER HUG OR SHOWER ME WITH A SMILE.

THIS IS THE ONLY SON WHO DO NOT RESPECT OR SAY HELLO TO MY FRIENDS.

THIS IS THE ONLY SON WHO WILL GET ANGRY IF I TOUCHES HIS FOOD OR THINGS. TO HIM HIS THINGS ARE GOLD, WHILE MY THINGS ARE TRASH AND PUBLIC  PROPERTY.

THIS IS THE ONLY SON WHO TEACHES HIS SISTERS TO HIDE FOOD AND DRINKS IN THE BEDROOMS.

THIS IS THE ONLY SON WHO HELPED ARLIZA KHAIRINA TO MOVE HER THINGS OUT OF THE HOUSE.

THIS IS THE ONLY SON WHO USES HIS PSYCHOLOGY DEGREE ON HIS SISTER TO GET MARRY WITHOUT MY PRESENCE AND PERMISSION.

THIS IS THE ONLY SON WHO USES HIS PSYCHOLOGY DEGREE ON HIS YOUNGER SISTER TO LEAVE ME.

A MATURE AND CARING SON WOULD NEVER HAVE ENCOURAGE HIS YOUNGER SISTER TO MOVE OUT.

THIS IS THE ONLY SON WHO STILL CANNOT GET HIS ELDEST BROTHER, MOHD KHAIRUL TO LEAVE ME AND NOT SUPPORT ME.

THIS IS THE ONLY SON WHO TELLS HIS OTHER BROTHER, MOHD AMIR TO MIND HIS OWN BUSINESS AND NOT BE INVOLVE IN ANYTHING HERE SINCE HE IS OVERSEAS.

TODAY AMSYAR HAS A LAST MISSION TO PERSUADE HIS ELDEST BROTHER TO LEAVE AND NOT SUPPORT ME.

EVERYTIME SOMETHING HAPPENS TO ME OR THE HOUSE NEED REPAIR, AMSYAR IS THE HAPPIEST. FOR HE BELIEVE I DESERVE IT.

THIS IS MY KARMA FOR DOING SOMETHING TERRIBLE IN MY PREVIOUS LIFE AND GIVING BIRTH TO HIM.

I AM VERY SURE TOO THAT WHEN MY BIOLOGICAL DAUGHTER ARLIZA KHAIRINA MARRIES MY EX HUSBAND OR BE THE SECOND WIFE OF THE SISTER'S HUSBAND, MOHD KHAIR AMSYAR WILL JUMP FOR JOY.  BECAUSE HURTING ME IS HIS MISSION IN THIS LIFE.

The Ultimate Imaginary mind

 

2020 is the most dangerous and most creative year for the Malays.

Even the Chinese and Indians cannot beat this one.

And it ONLY takes A Melayu FROM A Racist Party to end the year in a firework of imaginary that no man can create.

IT IS ANOTHER EMBARASSMENT TO MALAYSIA.

YET THE MELAYU PARTY IS SO PROUD TO SHOW OFF THEIR STUPITY WITHOUT PROPER SURVEY AND STUDY.

THIS IS THE FACE OF STUPIDITY.